If I could only stop hating long enough to love
Recently I have been running around telling everyone about a lesson that I learned which I believe keeps me in a decent mood much longer than I had ever experienced in quite some time. To some I appear like I have lost my mind and considering my current situation, those who are really close to me seemed confused as to why I could have such a bright outlook on life.
All my life I have tried to do what was right and having been told that this was the key to open any door, I was surprised to learn that it wasn’t. I’ve had to close the doors to both my businesses and been unemployed since December 2009. Since I worked for myself, I was not able to collect unemployment and lost my home, car and way. At my age, moving in with family did not make it better but makes it worse because everyday I have to face the feeling of lost manhood as soon as my eyes open each day. That was before I began to realize that all the hate which occupies any part of my mind and body was taking up the room necessary to grow and only love would get me to where I have always wanted to be. Maybe that was the lesson that God wanted me to learn which is why everything happens for a reason and all this has happened to me.
I know this now because after replacing hate with love, things are looking brighter than they have in a very long time. I remember the good times and the bad but when I remember the bad, they are no longer bad. They are lessons that once they are dissected reveal answers to questions that I did not even know I had. All this started simply by saying thanks for waking me up in the morning, really looking at my children and seeing not people in need but results of what happens when you give them your heart and a little bit of your time instead of your money. The power of a touch, a hug or a smile instead of a display of despair. Finding the positive in everything that they say or do while softly pointing out any mistakes that may have been made. Not letting another person’s bad day affect you in such a way to turn yours sour and doing the little things that bring a smile to my face.
I may not have the best job in the world when it comes to being able to buy those material things that so many say they must have but what I do possess is nothing different than what we all possess, the love of life itself. I have seen life escape the body of a few people in my time and just before it happens, regret is present. I do not plan to have that issue before I breathe my last breathe and if that is to be true, I have to commit to the same while I breathe. Life is too short and no one knows what tomorrow will bring but I am determine to face it with this same smile each and every day, I’m asking you to join me in this because it feels good.
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